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28 July 2013 @ 05:08 pm
Let's be friends again  
Situational analysis; really, really, really, F'ed up.

My biggest problem is fear. A total an utter fear of life and things and trying to attack. Please understand crap just keeps falling on me. If you are following this you understand. I'm on my 2nd shrink and my 2nd shrink who has asked me how I haven't committed suicide. When I did my orientation session with the new guy he was writing down notes like crazy. I wonder if I qualify for Post traumatic? Now, life is slowing down. Still sucks but slowing down. Wrecked my car but now I have a car which might be a bargain. But still. I just can't grip on any kind of success. If it isn't losing money it's losing dreams or it's losing people.

I'm tired and I feel like I aged 50 years in 5.

I'm going to try and take steps forward but I need help. I'm trying but I understand that no one really wants to come to me.

Still I'm trying to step forward.
silvax69: pic#111515065silvax69 on July 31st, 2013 08:19 pm (UTC)
Sorry for being so silent for the past year. Lots of things to think of myself. Too many changes, and more to come. Condolences on your Fathers Passing. I hope you do survive and get stronger for everything thats been done to you.
jacobohare: pic#69194749jacobohare on August 1st, 2013 01:42 pm (UTC)
We all have problems. I keep telling myself that. Just tired of life.